It is, what it is

So I got the engagement pictures back today.  They are cute but I just keep looking at them and I kind of want to cry. Mostly out of frustration with myself.  I have a degree in exercise science yet I can't even get myself down to smaller sizes like I want to.  I know all there is to know about weight loss and how it is accomplished and what you need to do, yet why can't I follow through with it?
I want the outside me to match the way I feel and I see myself. I never wanted to be that Marshmallow bride, but it looks like that is what I will be turning out to be.

Going strong!

Yes I allowed that moment of upsetness to pass and no I'm not getting rid of my boobs to fit into a dress. My mom and I ended up going to a local store and found clothing that will work for the pictures. I'm happy with them and amazingly enough they fit just fine and they are the right sizes. 
I do think that some designers say they are true to size but they don't really know what that true to size is. 
Anyway I just wanted to update you all on that I'm still going strong with the workouts and eating correctly for my body and drinking my water.  I didn't have nearly as much water yesterday as I would have liked and now I'm paying for it with swollen ankles. But I'm chugging it down still.


Thank you for not judging.
~Mary

Damn boobs!

I'm pretty ticked right now I bought this amazingly beautiful dress for my engagement photos. It came in the mail today and I was super excited yet nervous to try it on.  I ordered it a size larger because I knew I could always take it in if it was too big. Well it was too small in the boobage area. I guess my DDD's were a little too much for that cute little dress. Luckily the company does free returns.  I couldn't go up a size because I had it in the largest size it came in.  So now my mom and I get to go and find something around here to replace it. 


The part that upsets me is that there is nothing I can do about my boobs.  whenever I lose weight and start to tighten up they get bigger.  I know eventually everything evens out and they will start to go down but that takes like 6 months for me to get to that part and by then I'm frustrated because my cup size keeps going up. 


I had to rant. 
Sorry
~Mary

Down 6!

As of this morning peeps, I am down 6 lbs! I haven't been doing the books eating suggestions I've just kept up with the massive amounts of water, eating by the first 15 minutes of being awake and doing the breathing techniques.  I'm rather pleased with it.  I've also been watching what I'm eating and making sure I'm not pigging out on the 'addies' I like to say 'Cause addies create fatties'. :D I know I'm mean but it stops me from adding things to my foods to make them higher in calorie and as a petite added calories over time will make me gain the weight back.


Just wanted to keep you all updated.


Thank you for not judging.
~Mary

Less bloaty

So I've been going through the guidelines of the Petite diet and I have to say that I don't feel as bloaty and I don't find myself wanting to snack.  I mean I want to but I'm satisfied with my food choices so I don't feel like I need to snack.

Well I had a banana split today only because of other stressers, Yes I tried the breathing thing but this is a huge thing and that won't help with it. And yes in away the banana split did help but I still feel bad so I know that food will not solve all of my problems. Hello it caused most of my problems and that fact that I haven't been as active as I would like to be. I need to be better I know.

Thank you for not judging.

~Mary

Stress Reduction

I started a few days ago on a stress relieving exercise program so to speak.  Whenever I feel overwhelmed or stressed due to whatever is going on in my life I take a series of deep breaths.  I usually inhale for the count of 4 using one thousand as my timing agent and then let it out for the same 4 counts.  I work up from 4 and try to hold it from 5-8 and then do the same. I know it sounds weird but it has worked amazingly well for me. I'm down 3 lbs since I started!
I know that stress is a huge part of the weight gaining process so I know just sitting back and breathing will help me to stay focused and it's helping me to sleep at nights which is a HUGE relief for me right now. 


Just wanted to share.


Thank you for not judging.


~Mary

Being Petite

I've been reading the book I told you all about in the previous post. And I do kind of agree with what Mr. Jim Karas has to say. (not really a fan that he's one of Oprah's favs and all but you can't make everything your way right?)Anyway I know all of the information that Mr. Karas says in his book because it was taught to me in my classes at school yet the way he found out makes the light bulbs turn on for me. Obviously shorter people don't need as much food as someone who's 5'10" where are we going to put it? The part that I love so much though.  Cardio does pretty much nothing for short people, I now understand why it pains me sooo much to do cardio. I love bio mechanics and the human body. I knew there was a reason I always excelled in weight training and why I enjoy it so much.  I could do strength all day every day and now with this guys information and his program it makes complete sense.  
I have not finished reading the book yet but I understand where it all comes into play with the human body. I can't wait to try out the workout that he has planned in the book though. 


Just wanted to share that insight with you all. 


Thank you for not judging. 
~Mary