Yes this post should probably go into my other blog but I feel that it needs to be added to this one instead.
The other night I was getting very frustrated with not having my dress yet, which I still don't have but we keep pushing on. Anyway, I was on the phone with one of my friends and she asked if I could just do without the bridals. If push came to shove and I couldn't fit them in with my schedule then yes I would give up on the bridals but throughout this whole wedding planning and taking care of everything else along the way I realized that those bridals meant more to me than just getting in my dress and getting pictures taken of me in it. I haven't really felt like a bride this entire time, yes I've had the stress of everything but I have not had that bridal moment where I can say "yes, I am a bride." I don't know why I haven't had it yet but it just hasn't hit me. I expressed this to my friend and she completely understood it. Then I had to tell another friend about it too since she has been amazing throughout majority of this stress mess crap.
I know this doesn't really have a whole lot to do with anything but I felt I needed to share it. It does suck having to pay for pretty much your entire wedding yourself, yes I will use that against some siblings when they say I never pay for anything or something stupid like that. As well as planning the whole thing out myself as well. Not to talk smack about my mom but I've pretty much taken on everything myself. I mean I made the invites, scheduled everything and paying for it all. The only thing I'm not doing in my own is setting up the entire reception. But I won't be shocked when I see that my siblings won't be there because something better came along.
Anyway that is all I wanted to say.
Thank you for not judging
~Mary
